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POETRY

POETRY

Contemplating on this journey we call life

Contemplating on this journey

we call life

on the miracle of life

07/17/2025

i am a miracle you are a miracle life itself a miracle woven into everything around us from the light at dusk falling softly over your arms as the cool air eases into stillness to the fresh espresso strong and bitter landing on your tongue signaling morning has begun from the birds arcing overhead their united wings moving quietly through the evening sky to the orchid on your windowsill still alive still reaching holding on with small green leaves from the steady line of ants moving across the kitchen counter precise one after another fulfilling their duties to the cold water splashing over your skin on a scorching day for a moment making everything stop a taste of relief itself from the ripe mango sticky and sweet bringing back summer afternoons from childhood to the gentle chime of spoons stirring afternoon tea a moment to savor a moment to slow down from the dog resting its head on your knee needing nothing but to stay near to the soft weight of a blanket settling on your shoulders at night giving you permission to finally rest all around us everywhere we look signs invitations the world whispering its ordinary wonders reminding us again and again life is a miracle

on the miracle of life

07/17/2025

i am a miracle you are a miracle life itself a miracle woven into everything around us from the light at dusk falling softly over your arms as the cool air eases into stillness to the fresh espresso strong and bitter landing on your tongue signaling morning has begun from the birds arcing overhead their united wings moving quietly through the evening sky to the orchid on your windowsill still alive still reaching holding on with small green leaves from the steady line of ants moving across the kitchen counter precise one after another fulfilling their duties to the cold water splashing over your skin on a scorching day for a moment making everything stop a taste of relief itself from the ripe mango sticky and sweet bringing back summer afternoons from childhood to the gentle chime of spoons stirring afternoon tea a moment to savor a moment to slow down from the dog resting its head on your knee needing nothing but to stay near to the soft weight of a blanket settling on your shoulders at night giving you permission to finally rest all around us everywhere we look signs invitations the world whispering its ordinary wonders reminding us again and again life is a miracle

on the miracle of life

07/17/2025

i am a miracle you are a miracle life itself a miracle woven into everything around us from the light at dusk falling softly over your arms as the cool air eases into stillness to the fresh espresso strong and bitter landing on your tongue signaling morning has begun from the birds arcing overhead their united wings moving quietly through the evening sky to the orchid on your windowsill still alive still reaching holding on with small green leaves from the steady line of ants moving across the kitchen counter precise one after another fulfilling their duties to the cold water splashing over your skin on a scorching day for a moment making everything stop a taste of relief itself from the ripe mango sticky and sweet bringing back summer afternoons from childhood to the gentle chime of spoons stirring afternoon tea a moment to savor a moment to slow down from the dog resting its head on your knee needing nothing but to stay near to the soft weight of a blanket settling on your shoulders at night giving you permission to finally rest all around us everywhere we look signs invitations the world whispering its ordinary wonders reminding us again and again life is a miracle

on seasons

07/16/2025

it is essential to know which season you are in and to welcome it fully live it wholly even when it aches to do so even when your mind has other plans even when every instinct says resist for just as spring always waits around the corner of winter your turning will come in due time practice recognizing whether it is your season of hibernation or harvest of gathering or letting go and embrace it while it lasts for soon you may find yourself pining for what has passed just as the land must lie fallow to renew its hidden richness so too must you allow yourself to rest to empty to trust the natural rhythm shaping your unfolding there will be seasons to weep seasons to rejoice and over time you may come to see that each is as necessary each as precious each bearing its own quiet grace after all would you know the meaning of light if night never fell upon your day?

on seasons

07/16/2025

it is essential to know which season you are in and to welcome it fully live it wholly even when it aches to do so even when your mind has other plans even when every instinct says resist for just as spring always waits around the corner of winter your turning will come in due time practice recognizing whether it is your season of hibernation or harvest of gathering or letting go and embrace it while it lasts for soon you may find yourself pining for what has passed just as the land must lie fallow to renew its hidden richness so too must you allow yourself to rest to empty to trust the natural rhythm shaping your unfolding there will be seasons to weep seasons to rejoice and over time you may come to see that each is as necessary each as precious each bearing its own quiet grace after all would you know the meaning of light if night never fell upon your day?

on seasons

07/16/2025

it is essential to know which season you are in and to welcome it fully live it wholly even when it aches to do so even when your mind has other plans even when every instinct says resist for just as spring always waits around the corner of winter your turning will come in due time practice recognizing whether it is your season of hibernation or harvest of gathering or letting go and embrace it while it lasts for soon you may find yourself pining for what has passed just as the land must lie fallow to renew its hidden richness so too must you allow yourself to rest to empty to trust the natural rhythm shaping your unfolding there will be seasons to weep seasons to rejoice and over time you may come to see that each is as necessary each as precious each bearing its own quiet grace after all would you know the meaning of light if night never fell upon your day?

on grief

07/15/2025

it is so easy to think and feel that grief is a trouble to be solved an illness to cure a shadow to banish but perhaps grief is simply a quiet guest arriving unbidden seeking only a place to rest at the hearth of your life what if you let it take its place not hurried not hushed for it may know something you do not yet of the shape you are becoming what if you make a wide space for its silence pull up a chair at your table for its ache and let it warm itself by your fire what if you carry it gently as one would a fragile bowl aware that it too holds water for what must grow what if you let it soften your edges and carve new hollows where joys and sorrows can share the same room and see themselves in each other perhaps in this way grief will make its home in you and if your heart remains open show you the way to new love sprouting in the deeper ground of your being

on grief

07/15/2025

it is so easy to think and feel that grief is a trouble to be solved an illness to cure a shadow to banish but perhaps grief is simply a quiet guest arriving unbidden seeking only a place to rest at the hearth of your life what if you let it take its place not hurried not hushed for it may know something you do not yet of the shape you are becoming what if you make a wide space for its silence pull up a chair at your table for its ache and let it warm itself by your fire what if you carry it gently as one would a fragile bowl aware that it too holds water for what must grow what if you let it soften your edges and carve new hollows where joys and sorrows can share the same room and see themselves in each other perhaps in this way grief will make its home in you and if your heart remains open show you the way to new love sprouting in the deeper ground of your being

on grief

07/15/2025

it is so easy to think and feel that grief is a trouble to be solved an illness to cure a shadow to banish but perhaps grief is simply a quiet guest arriving unbidden seeking only a place to rest at the hearth of your life what if you let it take its place not hurried not hushed for it may know something you do not yet of the shape you are becoming what if you make a wide space for its silence pull up a chair at your table for its ache and let it warm itself by your fire what if you carry it gently as one would a fragile bowl aware that it too holds water for what must grow what if you let it soften your edges and carve new hollows where joys and sorrows can share the same room and see themselves in each other perhaps in this way grief will make its home in you and if your heart remains open show you the way to new love sprouting in the deeper ground of your being

on the body

06/22/2025

I’m starting to understand what they mean when they say your body keeps the score in the layers below my mind’s control my body bears my story with imprints of my past my sins and all I’ve seen stitched upon my skin viscerally I can feel where I’ve been still within my present now sometimes when I tune in to my body’s tension I can hear whispers of my soul pulsating softly simply asking for release

on the body

06/22/2025

I’m starting to understand what they mean when they say your body keeps the score in the layers below my mind’s control my body bears my story with imprints of my past my sins and all I’ve seen stitched upon my skin viscerally I can feel where I’ve been still within my present now sometimes when I tune in to my body’s tension I can hear whispers of my soul pulsating softly simply asking for release

on the body

06/22/2025

I’m starting to understand what they mean when they say your body keeps the score in the layers below my mind’s control my body bears my story with imprints of my past my sins and all I’ve seen stitched upon my skin viscerally I can feel where I’ve been still within my present now sometimes when I tune in to my body’s tension I can hear whispers of my soul pulsating softly simply asking for release

on hope

06/18/2025

Hope I still cannot tell if it is the active practice of choosing again and again not to succumb not to harden but to live out our longing now Or if hope is a quiet revelation already deep within a small flame burning still burning in the hollow silence a sacred gift inviting us to step as pilgrims of faith into eternity

on hope

06/18/2025

Hope I still cannot tell if it is the active practice of choosing again and again not to succumb not to harden but to live out our longing now Or if hope is a quiet revelation already deep within a small flame burning still burning in the hollow silence a sacred gift inviting us to step as pilgrims of faith into eternity

on hope

06/18/2025

Hope I still cannot tell if it is the active practice of choosing again and again not to succumb not to harden but to live out our longing now Or if hope is a quiet revelation already deep within a small flame burning still burning in the hollow silence a sacred gift inviting us to step as pilgrims of faith into eternity

on friendship

06/17/2025

We are all temporary travellers on this fragile sphere together pedalling forward at our own pace towards our shared final place where our hearts cease to beat Along this voyage as we stumble over holes and get stuck in circles our temptation is to cover our cracks and fold into ourselves But when we crash face-forward into the gravel of destiny gravity carving its name across our bruised jaws the real power of friendship steps from shadow into light In our fall we hear the inescapable call to sink into the other’s embrace and take refuge in their present steadiness Our tender openness gives the other permission to bear witness a sacred gift veiled in the cloak of a plea filling up their cup just as much as ours

on friendship

06/17/2025

We are all temporary travellers on this fragile sphere together pedalling forward at our own pace towards our shared final place where our hearts cease to beat Along this voyage as we stumble over holes and get stuck in circles our temptation is to cover our cracks and fold into ourselves But when we crash face-forward into the gravel of destiny gravity carving its name across our bruised jaws the real power of friendship steps from shadow into light In our fall we hear the inescapable call to sink into the other’s embrace and take refuge in their present steadiness Our tender openness gives the other permission to bear witness a sacred gift veiled in the cloak of a plea filling up their cup just as much as ours

on friendship

06/17/2025

We are all temporary travellers on this fragile sphere together pedalling forward at our own pace towards our shared final place where our hearts cease to beat Along this voyage as we stumble over holes and get stuck in circles our temptation is to cover our cracks and fold into ourselves But when we crash face-forward into the gravel of destiny gravity carving its name across our bruised jaws the real power of friendship steps from shadow into light In our fall we hear the inescapable call to sink into the other’s embrace and take refuge in their present steadiness Our tender openness gives the other permission to bear witness a sacred gift veiled in the cloak of a plea filling up their cup just as much as ours

on powerlessness

06/16/2025

The time has come. uninvited night showed up at my doorstep to strip me of my armor I once thought impenetrable Yet now somehow I break I unravel scattered and wide open laid bare to the moon In my trembling nakedness I grasp at the branches I’ve clung to in past storms and hide behind the familiar masks I’ve put on when the truth has stung too hard My poor soul is unaware that no force of will no matter how fast it runs will mend these cracks But I will quickly learn as my mind stirs and my grip aches I cannot fix my way out of this All I can do is lay down my arms beneath the stars cast my sorrow into the wind’s care and give myself away to the night air This too shall pass.

on powerlessness

06/16/2025

The time has come. uninvited night showed up at my doorstep to strip me of my armor I once thought impenetrable Yet now somehow I break I unravel scattered and wide open laid bare to the moon In my trembling nakedness I grasp at the branches I’ve clung to in past storms and hide behind the familiar masks I’ve put on when the truth has stung too hard My poor soul is unaware that no force of will no matter how fast it runs will mend these cracks But I will quickly learn as my mind stirs and my grip aches I cannot fix my way out of this All I can do is lay down my arms beneath the stars cast my sorrow into the wind’s care and give myself away to the night air This too shall pass.

on powerlessness

06/16/2025

The time has come. uninvited night showed up at my doorstep to strip me of my armor I once thought impenetrable Yet now somehow I break I unravel scattered and wide open laid bare to the moon In my trembling nakedness I grasp at the branches I’ve clung to in past storms and hide behind the familiar masks I’ve put on when the truth has stung too hard My poor soul is unaware that no force of will no matter how fast it runs will mend these cracks But I will quickly learn as my mind stirs and my grip aches I cannot fix my way out of this All I can do is lay down my arms beneath the stars cast my sorrow into the wind’s care and give myself away to the night air This too shall pass.

on self-relationship

06/15/2025

When the noise of the world subsides the distractions dissolve and the silence summons you to your soul’s mirror who do you see? From this encounter all else follows Herein lie the roots of your suffering and the seeds of your renewal That which has saved you Yet chained you The harsh words the cowering the prayers for perfection the blame, shame, and regret all crowding the channel to your soul What if instead you called up all those people you’ve seen in your mirror offered them a seat at your table and kindly bid them farewell? The time has come to finally open your eyes to your one quiet friend who has never left your side The real you hidden in the silence not waiting to be fixed only met in your mirror Your pain is your invitation to greet your deepest self with the love that will set you and your world free

on self-relationship

06/15/2025

When the noise of the world subsides the distractions dissolve and the silence summons you to your soul’s mirror who do you see? From this encounter all else follows Herein lie the roots of your suffering and the seeds of your renewal That which has saved you Yet chained you The harsh words the cowering the prayers for perfection the blame, shame, and regret all crowding the channel to your soul What if instead you called up all those people you’ve seen in your mirror offered them a seat at your table and kindly bid them farewell? The time has come to finally open your eyes to your one quiet friend who has never left your side The real you hidden in the silence not waiting to be fixed only met in your mirror Your pain is your invitation to greet your deepest self with the love that will set you and your world free

on self-relationship

06/15/2025

When the noise of the world subsides the distractions dissolve and the silence summons you to your soul’s mirror who do you see? From this encounter all else follows Herein lie the roots of your suffering and the seeds of your renewal That which has saved you Yet chained you The harsh words the cowering the prayers for perfection the blame, shame, and regret all crowding the channel to your soul What if instead you called up all those people you’ve seen in your mirror offered them a seat at your table and kindly bid them farewell? The time has come to finally open your eyes to your one quiet friend who has never left your side The real you hidden in the silence not waiting to be fixed only met in your mirror Your pain is your invitation to greet your deepest self with the love that will set you and your world free

on liminality

06/15/2025

When your past story has run its course and no longer shines with the same warm light and your future once just down the familiar road ahead has now faded you may find yourself adrift in a sea of both finality and possibility outstretched between the dusk of your dimming past and the dawn of your unwritten tomorrow this eerie, formless threshold where shadow meets light and time holds its breath this space is your portal to the other side you may plant seeds and water your soil but the real key to your beyond lies in listening to its silent whispers.

on liminality

06/15/2025

When your past story has run its course and no longer shines with the same warm light and your future once just down the familiar road ahead has now faded you may find yourself adrift in a sea of both finality and possibility outstretched between the dusk of your dimming past and the dawn of your unwritten tomorrow this eerie, formless threshold where shadow meets light and time holds its breath this space is your portal to the other side you may plant seeds and water your soil but the real key to your beyond lies in listening to its silent whispers.

on liminality

06/15/2025

When your past story has run its course and no longer shines with the same warm light and your future once just down the familiar road ahead has now faded you may find yourself adrift in a sea of both finality and possibility outstretched between the dusk of your dimming past and the dawn of your unwritten tomorrow this eerie, formless threshold where shadow meets light and time holds its breath this space is your portal to the other side you may plant seeds and water your soil but the real key to your beyond lies in listening to its silent whispers.

on trust

06/15/2025

When all comes crashing down with the weight of the world ripping apart what I thought was true how do I trust? When the ground holding my being crumbles into a million pieces leaving me frozen and flailing how do I trust? When my dreamed future suddenly vanishes into the clouds revealing a horrifyingly limitless horizon how do I trust? I wonder if this empty abyss is the only place I may at last come face to face with trust

on trust

06/15/2025

When all comes crashing down with the weight of the world ripping apart what I thought was true how do I trust? When the ground holding my being crumbles into a million pieces leaving me frozen and flailing how do I trust? When my dreamed future suddenly vanishes into the clouds revealing a horrifyingly limitless horizon how do I trust? I wonder if this empty abyss is the only place I may at last come face to face with trust

on trust

06/15/2025

When all comes crashing down with the weight of the world ripping apart what I thought was true how do I trust? When the ground holding my being crumbles into a million pieces leaving me frozen and flailing how do I trust? When my dreamed future suddenly vanishes into the clouds revealing a horrifyingly limitless horizon how do I trust? I wonder if this empty abyss is the only place I may at last come face to face with trust

one simple question

04/2020

“What’s your narrative?” one simple question asked again and again to weave together the threads of my stories to draw the clear constellation of my stars “listen up! it’s your key to college don’t you know to compete you must always stand out or you’ll surely be beat it’s the pitch you present to yourself and to all you rehearse and repeat until you never stall” one simple question with pressure impressed on my soul becomes outlook clouded in fear to never not hold my built image near but now that I’m here with blank space without hurdles it’s time to erase and leave the rest to grace

one simple question

04/2020

“What’s your narrative?” one simple question asked again and again to weave together the threads of my stories to draw the clear constellation of my stars “listen up! it’s your key to college don’t you know to compete you must always stand out or you’ll surely be beat it’s the pitch you present to yourself and to all you rehearse and repeat until you never stall” one simple question with pressure impressed on my soul becomes outlook clouded in fear to never not hold my built image near but now that I’m here with blank space without hurdles it’s time to erase and leave the rest to grace

one simple question

04/2020

“What’s your narrative?” one simple question asked again and again to weave together the threads of my stories to draw the clear constellation of my stars “listen up! it’s your key to college don’t you know to compete you must always stand out or you’ll surely be beat it’s the pitch you present to yourself and to all you rehearse and repeat until you never stall” one simple question with pressure impressed on my soul becomes outlook clouded in fear to never not hold my built image near but now that I’m here with blank space without hurdles it’s time to erase and leave the rest to grace

i'm just here

04/2020

Today I meet the feeling of floundering As if I’m flailing my arms and legs in midair With nowhere to fall And no one to call I’m just here Trapped in the infinity Of some distorted time loop Perpetually perplexed Ambling aimlessly towards…? Neither forward nor backward I’m just here

i'm just here

04/2020

Today I meet the feeling of floundering As if I’m flailing my arms and legs in midair With nowhere to fall And no one to call I’m just here Trapped in the infinity Of some distorted time loop Perpetually perplexed Ambling aimlessly towards…? Neither forward nor backward I’m just here

i'm just here

04/2020

Today I meet the feeling of floundering As if I’m flailing my arms and legs in midair With nowhere to fall And no one to call I’m just here Trapped in the infinity Of some distorted time loop Perpetually perplexed Ambling aimlessly towards…? Neither forward nor backward I’m just here

something new

04/2020

This year I tried something new: I unscrewed the familiar rudder from my boat, Pushed myself in the current, and waited afloat For the beckoning horizon of the unknown To guide my unmoored being home.

something new

04/2020

This year I tried something new: I unscrewed the familiar rudder from my boat, Pushed myself in the current, and waited afloat For the beckoning horizon of the unknown To guide my unmoored being home.

something new

04/2020

This year I tried something new: I unscrewed the familiar rudder from my boat, Pushed myself in the current, and waited afloat For the beckoning horizon of the unknown To guide my unmoored being home.

i cannot tell

04/2020

Right now I cannot tell What is truly mine to be From what the voices repeat About productivity I cannot tell What my hungry heart begs for From what my hard head bewails About not enough, need more I cannot tell What my soft soul beseeches From what my besieged mind moans About the grasps, the reaches Swept into this raw wrestle I weep, I watch a child caught Lone in the crossfire of thought With just one wish: to come home.

i cannot tell

04/2020

Right now I cannot tell What is truly mine to be From what the voices repeat About productivity I cannot tell What my hungry heart begs for From what my hard head bewails About not enough, need more I cannot tell What my soft soul beseeches From what my besieged mind moans About the grasps, the reaches Swept into this raw wrestle I weep, I watch a child caught Lone in the crossfire of thought With just one wish: to come home.

i cannot tell

04/2020

Right now I cannot tell What is truly mine to be From what the voices repeat About productivity I cannot tell What my hungry heart begs for From what my hard head bewails About not enough, need more I cannot tell What my soft soul beseeches From what my besieged mind moans About the grasps, the reaches Swept into this raw wrestle I weep, I watch a child caught Lone in the crossfire of thought With just one wish: to come home.

space

04/2020

When I notice myself begin to tighten my body hardening against this moment I face bogged by the thick quicksand fog hiding my unbudging heart jammed in its place that’s when I know what I need is space gentle and loving space to open and go with the flow of reality that rawly unraveling conversation between what I am and what the world is what I want and what the world gives like the smoothest of slaloms or a lovely intimate dance with a Mysterious partner guiding me with every step closer to home

space

04/2020

When I notice myself begin to tighten my body hardening against this moment I face bogged by the thick quicksand fog hiding my unbudging heart jammed in its place that’s when I know what I need is space gentle and loving space to open and go with the flow of reality that rawly unraveling conversation between what I am and what the world is what I want and what the world gives like the smoothest of slaloms or a lovely intimate dance with a Mysterious partner guiding me with every step closer to home

space

04/2020

When I notice myself begin to tighten my body hardening against this moment I face bogged by the thick quicksand fog hiding my unbudging heart jammed in its place that’s when I know what I need is space gentle and loving space to open and go with the flow of reality that rawly unraveling conversation between what I am and what the world is what I want and what the world gives like the smoothest of slaloms or a lovely intimate dance with a Mysterious partner guiding me with every step closer to home

new clothes

04/2020

my old clothes are starting to feel heavy my mask sweaty from all these years of preparing and polishing… …until perfection, only that elusive promise for that smooth stamp of approval that glittering golden star for golden boy, or Mr. Perfect as they say impeccable, infallible, invincible for the grades, the goals, the accolades and all you can imagine except freedom so thank you, sincerely to all of you to all of me but now i’m ready it’s time to pick out new clothes.

new clothes

04/2020

my old clothes are starting to feel heavy my mask sweaty from all these years of preparing and polishing… …until perfection, only that elusive promise for that smooth stamp of approval that glittering golden star for golden boy, or Mr. Perfect as they say impeccable, infallible, invincible for the grades, the goals, the accolades and all you can imagine except freedom so thank you, sincerely to all of you to all of me but now i’m ready it’s time to pick out new clothes.

new clothes

04/2020

my old clothes are starting to feel heavy my mask sweaty from all these years of preparing and polishing… …until perfection, only that elusive promise for that smooth stamp of approval that glittering golden star for golden boy, or Mr. Perfect as they say impeccable, infallible, invincible for the grades, the goals, the accolades and all you can imagine except freedom so thank you, sincerely to all of you to all of me but now i’m ready it’s time to pick out new clothes.

the mess

04/2020

i’m tired of trying to hide the mess turning away in disgust thrusting it under the rug mercilessly just because i know no other way how unfriendly so what if instead i tried to meet the mess and listen to what it might have to say i could invite it over to my place for as long as it would like to stay first i’d show it its room with plush pillows and a fresh towel on its made up bed then when it’s settled i’d ask it to take a seat and a blanket get cozy and make itself at home while i cooked supper soon after we’d break bread and drink wine i wouldn’t even ask questions i’d give it all the time it needs to pour itself out i’d just listen with love and when it’s said enough i’d ask for forgiveness then give great thanks before we know it we’d be singing and laughing frolicking in merriment rejoicing in the revelry of our new relationship yes, if instead i tried to meet the mess something tells me i’d find a friend and more than that, i’d find that this friend, the mess, is the messenger of Life.

the mess

04/2020

i’m tired of trying to hide the mess turning away in disgust thrusting it under the rug mercilessly just because i know no other way how unfriendly so what if instead i tried to meet the mess and listen to what it might have to say i could invite it over to my place for as long as it would like to stay first i’d show it its room with plush pillows and a fresh towel on its made up bed then when it’s settled i’d ask it to take a seat and a blanket get cozy and make itself at home while i cooked supper soon after we’d break bread and drink wine i wouldn’t even ask questions i’d give it all the time it needs to pour itself out i’d just listen with love and when it’s said enough i’d ask for forgiveness then give great thanks before we know it we’d be singing and laughing frolicking in merriment rejoicing in the revelry of our new relationship yes, if instead i tried to meet the mess something tells me i’d find a friend and more than that, i’d find that this friend, the mess, is the messenger of Life.

the mess

04/2020

i’m tired of trying to hide the mess turning away in disgust thrusting it under the rug mercilessly just because i know no other way how unfriendly so what if instead i tried to meet the mess and listen to what it might have to say i could invite it over to my place for as long as it would like to stay first i’d show it its room with plush pillows and a fresh towel on its made up bed then when it’s settled i’d ask it to take a seat and a blanket get cozy and make itself at home while i cooked supper soon after we’d break bread and drink wine i wouldn’t even ask questions i’d give it all the time it needs to pour itself out i’d just listen with love and when it’s said enough i’d ask for forgiveness then give great thanks before we know it we’d be singing and laughing frolicking in merriment rejoicing in the revelry of our new relationship yes, if instead i tried to meet the mess something tells me i’d find a friend and more than that, i’d find that this friend, the mess, is the messenger of Life.

the rougher currents

04/2020

i want to swim in the rougher currents of this sea of life i want to be rocked and roiled whirled around my world spellbound slammed on the ground of sand every once in a while i want to feel the whack of the waves against my face i want to totally taste the salt water flood into my mouth allowing myself to be swept to and fro drenched in the darkness surrendering all of me to the majesty of the deep sea so that when i reemerge above the luminous surface and clear my eyes i might just see me, and this sea of life anew.

the rougher currents

04/2020

i want to swim in the rougher currents of this sea of life i want to be rocked and roiled whirled around my world spellbound slammed on the ground of sand every once in a while i want to feel the whack of the waves against my face i want to totally taste the salt water flood into my mouth allowing myself to be swept to and fro drenched in the darkness surrendering all of me to the majesty of the deep sea so that when i reemerge above the luminous surface and clear my eyes i might just see me, and this sea of life anew.

the rougher currents

04/2020

i want to swim in the rougher currents of this sea of life i want to be rocked and roiled whirled around my world spellbound slammed on the ground of sand every once in a while i want to feel the whack of the waves against my face i want to totally taste the salt water flood into my mouth allowing myself to be swept to and fro drenched in the darkness surrendering all of me to the majesty of the deep sea so that when i reemerge above the luminous surface and clear my eyes i might just see me, and this sea of life anew.

there’s a voice inside of me

04/2020

there’s a voice inside of me that i hear sometimes some days it whispers softly sort of like a fire crackling or rain drops falling a soundless sound i can just sense it other days it screams in the ear of my heart with the force of a prisoner pleading for release it reverberates in my body, pounding there’s no ignoring it this voice, it comes and it goes how it chooses to manifest itself and why or when i do not know still, i must care for this voice i must guard it as my precious treasure it has been entrusted to me, so i must trust it this i know if only i could communicate with this voice, a direct line of sorts maybe it could tell me exactly what to do, where to go, who to be to be honest i don’t think it’s trying to tell me anything at all what if it just longs to be warmly welcomed, its presence fully felt so that it might come alive and i might be at peace reminded with every murmur that it’s got everything taken care of

there’s a voice inside of me

04/2020

there’s a voice inside of me that i hear sometimes some days it whispers softly sort of like a fire crackling or rain drops falling a soundless sound i can just sense it other days it screams in the ear of my heart with the force of a prisoner pleading for release it reverberates in my body, pounding there’s no ignoring it this voice, it comes and it goes how it chooses to manifest itself and why or when i do not know still, i must care for this voice i must guard it as my precious treasure it has been entrusted to me, so i must trust it this i know if only i could communicate with this voice, a direct line of sorts maybe it could tell me exactly what to do, where to go, who to be to be honest i don’t think it’s trying to tell me anything at all what if it just longs to be warmly welcomed, its presence fully felt so that it might come alive and i might be at peace reminded with every murmur that it’s got everything taken care of

there’s a voice inside of me

04/2020

there’s a voice inside of me that i hear sometimes some days it whispers softly sort of like a fire crackling or rain drops falling a soundless sound i can just sense it other days it screams in the ear of my heart with the force of a prisoner pleading for release it reverberates in my body, pounding there’s no ignoring it this voice, it comes and it goes how it chooses to manifest itself and why or when i do not know still, i must care for this voice i must guard it as my precious treasure it has been entrusted to me, so i must trust it this i know if only i could communicate with this voice, a direct line of sorts maybe it could tell me exactly what to do, where to go, who to be to be honest i don’t think it’s trying to tell me anything at all what if it just longs to be warmly welcomed, its presence fully felt so that it might come alive and i might be at peace reminded with every murmur that it’s got everything taken care of

what a tragedy to be taught

11/2019

What a tragedy to be taught that being “put together” is something you aught to aim for always a proper condition to conserve at all costs cracks covered drained of tears devoid of fears faultless. clean this mess up quickly you’re told such impropriety must not be seen only accepted is the pristine so suck it up and sweep it under the rug, there where the unappealing must snugly stay away from sight next sculpt the hollow dough of your bare bones into a flawless mold only then able to show and don’t forget to wrap it all with a sparkling bow all this as if when the pain of your soul is spread out across the floor in between the pieces of your broken heart allowed to be welcomed at least for you, and maybe more, to see you’re “put apart” what a tragedy to be taught

what a tragedy to be taught

11/2019

What a tragedy to be taught that being “put together” is something you aught to aim for always a proper condition to conserve at all costs cracks covered drained of tears devoid of fears faultless. clean this mess up quickly you’re told such impropriety must not be seen only accepted is the pristine so suck it up and sweep it under the rug, there where the unappealing must snugly stay away from sight next sculpt the hollow dough of your bare bones into a flawless mold only then able to show and don’t forget to wrap it all with a sparkling bow all this as if when the pain of your soul is spread out across the floor in between the pieces of your broken heart allowed to be welcomed at least for you, and maybe more, to see you’re “put apart” what a tragedy to be taught

what a tragedy to be taught

11/2019

What a tragedy to be taught that being “put together” is something you aught to aim for always a proper condition to conserve at all costs cracks covered drained of tears devoid of fears faultless. clean this mess up quickly you’re told such impropriety must not be seen only accepted is the pristine so suck it up and sweep it under the rug, there where the unappealing must snugly stay away from sight next sculpt the hollow dough of your bare bones into a flawless mold only then able to show and don’t forget to wrap it all with a sparkling bow all this as if when the pain of your soul is spread out across the floor in between the pieces of your broken heart allowed to be welcomed at least for you, and maybe more, to see you’re “put apart” what a tragedy to be taught

mindful living

07/30/19

Mindful living is gracefully gliding through the turbulent air of life. It’s steadily riding the waves with balance and ease. A smooth conversation with reality one moment to the next. One unfettered, continuous movement. Like water flowing down a stream, caressing the rocks on its path, It follows the natural way of things. An elegant dance with the present. A delicate balance between giving and taking. Light and supple, this being ultimately becomes effortless. Rather than impose, dominate or resist, it surrenders. Yes, it knows that forcefulness will only drive it further into the depths of delusion. Only by letting go does it truly get. Releasing the ego’s precious illusion of control. Asking instead of answering. Listening instead of speaking. It knows with the utmost certainty of spirit that it does not know. So it loosens its grasp, sinks into the current of life, and gives itself away to its liberating pull. And at that moment, it unleashes an unending journey into the unknown territory deep within itself - that place from which life can, at last, be lived fully. Mindful living slowly unfolds. Like a baby in the womb or a caterpillar in its cocoon. It follows no agenda, no rules. The mind calms. The heart opens. At their own pace. And this process finds nourishment in practice. To soften the edges and fill the holes. To bathe in tenderness. To soak up the solace of stillness. To stare straight into the two eyes of the present and directly experience the addicting taste of life alive, of life awake. Here lies the land of both-and. Where possibility abounds and spaciousness eternally expands. Where everything emerges, is seen, and is held - until its impermanence is unveiled. It’s the realm of renewal and the home of healing. The source of spontaneity and vivid dreaming. And it does not take itself too seriously because it has learned what it means to truly breathe. To dance, to sing, to laugh, to weep! Now and forever, it savors this sensuous world with amazement and awe. Mindful living is bodyful living. It is learning to inhabit this uniquely human vessel, with curiosity, intimacy, gratitude. It is fiercely rooted. With each step, it kisses the grounding Earth, and with each sensation it showers in the sweet rawness of life, Gently seeing - and feeling - that it too is Nature. Above all else, it hungers for relationship and craves connection. Resting on the cushions of courage and vulnerability, it meets at any distance and invites in. Its door never closes, and its widening welcome mat is always there. Inside, its heart’s devotion is not to fix but rather to listen, to understand, to care. Clothed with patience and compassion, it tends to pain and sees the inherent goodness overflowing within. Mindful living sows the seeds for mindful action. With time, it learns to set boundaries by asserting its Yes’s and its No’s. It takes a stance. It speaks its truth. It realizes its inexhaustible inner well of wise energy, and channels it towards the wellbeing of all. Towards justice and peace. Thus, by freeing itself it frees the world. In the end, mindful living is called to welcome every moment of reality with open arms. Like the shining sun, it does not discriminate. It warmly embraces life with all its color, complexity, and corruption. And by some irrational touch of grace, the joys and the sorrows, the light and the dark, the birth and the death, the me and the you, slowly fade away - revealing the true nature of abundant Love.

mindful living

07/30/19

Mindful living is gracefully gliding through the turbulent air of life. It’s steadily riding the waves with balance and ease. A smooth conversation with reality one moment to the next. One unfettered, continuous movement. Like water flowing down a stream, caressing the rocks on its path, It follows the natural way of things. An elegant dance with the present. A delicate balance between giving and taking. Light and supple, this being ultimately becomes effortless. Rather than impose, dominate or resist, it surrenders. Yes, it knows that forcefulness will only drive it further into the depths of delusion. Only by letting go does it truly get. Releasing the ego’s precious illusion of control. Asking instead of answering. Listening instead of speaking. It knows with the utmost certainty of spirit that it does not know. So it loosens its grasp, sinks into the current of life, and gives itself away to its liberating pull. And at that moment, it unleashes an unending journey into the unknown territory deep within itself - that place from which life can, at last, be lived fully. Mindful living slowly unfolds. Like a baby in the womb or a caterpillar in its cocoon. It follows no agenda, no rules. The mind calms. The heart opens. At their own pace. And this process finds nourishment in practice. To soften the edges and fill the holes. To bathe in tenderness. To soak up the solace of stillness. To stare straight into the two eyes of the present and directly experience the addicting taste of life alive, of life awake. Here lies the land of both-and. Where possibility abounds and spaciousness eternally expands. Where everything emerges, is seen, and is held - until its impermanence is unveiled. It’s the realm of renewal and the home of healing. The source of spontaneity and vivid dreaming. And it does not take itself too seriously because it has learned what it means to truly breathe. To dance, to sing, to laugh, to weep! Now and forever, it savors this sensuous world with amazement and awe. Mindful living is bodyful living. It is learning to inhabit this uniquely human vessel, with curiosity, intimacy, gratitude. It is fiercely rooted. With each step, it kisses the grounding Earth, and with each sensation it showers in the sweet rawness of life, Gently seeing - and feeling - that it too is Nature. Above all else, it hungers for relationship and craves connection. Resting on the cushions of courage and vulnerability, it meets at any distance and invites in. Its door never closes, and its widening welcome mat is always there. Inside, its heart’s devotion is not to fix but rather to listen, to understand, to care. Clothed with patience and compassion, it tends to pain and sees the inherent goodness overflowing within. Mindful living sows the seeds for mindful action. With time, it learns to set boundaries by asserting its Yes’s and its No’s. It takes a stance. It speaks its truth. It realizes its inexhaustible inner well of wise energy, and channels it towards the wellbeing of all. Towards justice and peace. Thus, by freeing itself it frees the world. In the end, mindful living is called to welcome every moment of reality with open arms. Like the shining sun, it does not discriminate. It warmly embraces life with all its color, complexity, and corruption. And by some irrational touch of grace, the joys and the sorrows, the light and the dark, the birth and the death, the me and the you, slowly fade away - revealing the true nature of abundant Love.

mindful living

07/30/19

Mindful living is gracefully gliding through the turbulent air of life. It’s steadily riding the waves with balance and ease. A smooth conversation with reality one moment to the next. One unfettered, continuous movement. Like water flowing down a stream, caressing the rocks on its path, It follows the natural way of things. An elegant dance with the present. A delicate balance between giving and taking. Light and supple, this being ultimately becomes effortless. Rather than impose, dominate or resist, it surrenders. Yes, it knows that forcefulness will only drive it further into the depths of delusion. Only by letting go does it truly get. Releasing the ego’s precious illusion of control. Asking instead of answering. Listening instead of speaking. It knows with the utmost certainty of spirit that it does not know. So it loosens its grasp, sinks into the current of life, and gives itself away to its liberating pull. And at that moment, it unleashes an unending journey into the unknown territory deep within itself - that place from which life can, at last, be lived fully. Mindful living slowly unfolds. Like a baby in the womb or a caterpillar in its cocoon. It follows no agenda, no rules. The mind calms. The heart opens. At their own pace. And this process finds nourishment in practice. To soften the edges and fill the holes. To bathe in tenderness. To soak up the solace of stillness. To stare straight into the two eyes of the present and directly experience the addicting taste of life alive, of life awake. Here lies the land of both-and. Where possibility abounds and spaciousness eternally expands. Where everything emerges, is seen, and is held - until its impermanence is unveiled. It’s the realm of renewal and the home of healing. The source of spontaneity and vivid dreaming. And it does not take itself too seriously because it has learned what it means to truly breathe. To dance, to sing, to laugh, to weep! Now and forever, it savors this sensuous world with amazement and awe. Mindful living is bodyful living. It is learning to inhabit this uniquely human vessel, with curiosity, intimacy, gratitude. It is fiercely rooted. With each step, it kisses the grounding Earth, and with each sensation it showers in the sweet rawness of life, Gently seeing - and feeling - that it too is Nature. Above all else, it hungers for relationship and craves connection. Resting on the cushions of courage and vulnerability, it meets at any distance and invites in. Its door never closes, and its widening welcome mat is always there. Inside, its heart’s devotion is not to fix but rather to listen, to understand, to care. Clothed with patience and compassion, it tends to pain and sees the inherent goodness overflowing within. Mindful living sows the seeds for mindful action. With time, it learns to set boundaries by asserting its Yes’s and its No’s. It takes a stance. It speaks its truth. It realizes its inexhaustible inner well of wise energy, and channels it towards the wellbeing of all. Towards justice and peace. Thus, by freeing itself it frees the world. In the end, mindful living is called to welcome every moment of reality with open arms. Like the shining sun, it does not discriminate. It warmly embraces life with all its color, complexity, and corruption. And by some irrational touch of grace, the joys and the sorrows, the light and the dark, the birth and the death, the me and the you, slowly fade away - revealing the true nature of abundant Love.

Thomas Bernhardt-Lanier

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Thomas Bernhardt-Lanier

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Thomas Bernhardt-Lanier

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